Book Panic Strikes Again

I know it's not discussion day but I really don't feel like writing today's review and the evil Book Panic has struck again. What is this being you ask? First of all, I call it the Book Panic because according to Dictionary.com, the word panic means: a sudden overwhelming fear, with or without cause, that produces hysterical or irrational behavior. (I honestly didn't expect such an exact description of my current state.)

 

Just to clarify, Book Panic is a good thing; it means the authors are doing their jobs exceedingly well.

 

My first experience with Book Panic occurred less than 100 pages into Defiance by C.J. Redwine. To this day, I am only 136 pages into the dang thing because of it. I know! I want to read it but at the same time... I just can't. Everything keeps going wrong! Okay? Logan and Rachel keep making plans and then THE WORST things happen INSTEAD! My heart can't take it. Thinking about it makes me cry. Literally. Yes. I have tears IN MY EYES as I write about this.

 

 

So I've read about a million books since I started Defiance because I just can't find it in me to keep pushing because then I'll skim. And I don't want to skim. But I need to know everything turns out all right. But what if it doesn't!? I can't read fast enough. Do you see my dilemma here.

 

That was incident #1. Case #2 has been caused by none other than Sarah J. Maas herself. If you're following me on twitter, then you know I started The Assassin's Blade last week. People, I thought I'd have it done by now. I was prepared to like Sam. And I thought I prepared to watch Celaena's life fall into ruin. Guess what. I'M NOT.

 

 

I only have a little over 100 pages left. I haven't read it for about three days. I've almost finished The Assassin and the Underworld and Calaena keeps trusting Arobynn and I'm sitting there going, NO DON'T DO IT! Guys, I've cried while reading about it. And I cry EVERY time I start thinking about what's going to happen. I've never read the novellas before but I have read Throne of Glass and Crown of Midnight so I basically know what happens just not specifics.

 

There aren't any other books (or authors) out there that have made me cry this much. I applaud you Miss Maas and Miss Redwine. But do you HAVE TO RIP MY HEART OUT? Oh the talent. It hurts. And I love it. But it hurts. And I want to finish both books but I don't want to see all the heartbreak. The feels. The Book Panic. I love it. But does it have to stop me from reading the books? I suppose not; I just have to find the strength to continue.

 

Easier said than done.

 

Are there any books out there that have given YOU massive Book Panic feels?